I stole this blog note!

I have found a number of blogs that are so helpful, so comforting to me, when it comes to diabetes! This post below is from one of those blogs. This Christian mom is an honest, loving, mom who struggles as I struggle. Although, I have not read this book her words inspired me to do so and also inspired me in the way I think about my relationship with Brendan. Thanks Lynnea!

TAKEN FROM: http://jjsdiabetesjourney.blogspot.com/

The name of this book is "for one more day" by Mitch Albom . I don't know a thing about the hype surrounding this book, if there is a hype. Or the author for that matter. I'm completely out of the fiction world as I stated earlier. But I do know this.....the author kept me wanting to read more. I like those kinds of books.

Last night as I finished the book I found myself sobbing. Mainly from these lines from the last page:

"I also believe that parents, if they love you, will hold you up safely, above their swirling waters, and that means you'll never know what they endured........"

I felt and sometimes still feel like I failed J.J. by not protecting him somehow from the "swirling waters" of diabetes.....the turbulent life he will lead because of his diabetes. And yet on the flip side I see and know how happy and "normal" he is---mud pit and all---and I know for now I am sparing him some of the weightiness and heaviness. To some extent I am lifting him up....but I wish it weren't necessary.....I wish it were fully mine to bear.

I know my duty as a parent is to prepare J.J. for the whirlwind and swirling waters by planting his feet firmly on the Rock(Matt. 7:24-25).....so when the winds and storms blow and the floods come he will not drown because he has a firm faith. I'll also protect him with knowledge. Give him all the training and information about diabetes he needs to live life to the fullest.

So with that said.....the book was good.....and thought provoking....but a tear-jerker.

As a complete side note......writing notes for a serious blog post while you're on a treadmill at the gym can be really embarrassing if you start sobbing!!